The future, I am it seems living in a future now I never imagined or anticipated…  I live with the reality that I have lived longer than I ever will again, and I am good with that… It’s life.

What I would hope for the future to look like is most likely never going to be… I’d like to see sanity be common, hate less evident, and peace, tolerance, and empathy to be in the details instead of the chaos and vicious evil that is seeping into our government and the world so freely.

I never imagined I was being naive, that behind the facade of the life I lived ignorance, racism, and hate were hidden in plain sight. But I do know the devil wanders and whispers and lies in wait for souls to steal and chaos to make. I fight the darkness, the ignorance, and the cost of living in the chaos daily it seems nowadays. I am weary, not giving up, but tired. The silence and indifference of so many that I once thought educated is a very troubling thing.  I’m so disappointed in people, in so many of those I thought I knew. But I am equipped with the fairh to fight, the desire to make it through without falling into the abyss… I am but one somebody, but I strive to share testimony, good vibes, and sage advice to those who need it.  That is how I go on, even believing that in my lifetime I may never see the future I imagined…