Rambling and sharing what makes me, who I am… No one word seems to fit..
I AM…
I AM…
A mother, a daughter, a sister, and a grand and great grandmother… A romantic dreamer and passionate-hearted lover… A writer and thinker and a constant daydreamer… A true believer…
I WONDER…
About forever… About long ago… About what is happening, why, and what I should do… About what normal really is and why I care so much…
I HEAR…
Whispers in the dark… Giggles and smiles in the voices of a child and laughter in my own heart… voices from the past and whispers of dreams from the future…
I SEE…
Beauty in the Shadows and the light…. Smiles and Grins… Sorrow and tears… What is right in front of me, but not what keeps coming up from behind…
I WANT…
To know more and to know less… To make things happen, some good, some bad… I want quiet and noise… Companionship and solitude… Laughter and smiles and yes even tears… Things to be just right… I want it ALL…
I AM…
Me, just me… happier more often than sad and mostly glad… In wonder at what life seems to hold…
I PRETEND…
I know why and that I care… It does not hurt… There is plenty of time… I know what I want… I have all I need…
I FEEL…
Happiness and pain, heartache and joy, sorrow and grief… Warmth and comfort… The change in certain things…. The love in my heart as it grows, the empty ache in it that makes me feel like it is broken…
I WORRY…
Too much about things beyond my control… About what will happen ifs… That dreams really do come true…
I CRY…
When I am sad and when I am happy, and for no reason at al,l it seems at times… When I watch Steel Magnolias, Fried Green Tomatoes, and Gone with the Wind…When I dream and watch the moon…
I UNDERSTAND…
More than some people think I do and never enough at times or so it seems…
I SAY…
Exactly what I mean to most of the time… More than I meant to sometimes… What must be said… What they want to hear… What I need for some to know… and What my heart feels…
I DREAM…
Of things most seem to take for granted… Of a real life that is as I want it to be… Of happiness and love and forever after… Of things I did long ago and things I want to do…
I TRY…
To do what I know I can live with… Not to fight but to win if I do… To be kind and do what is right… To remember what really was said…. And to give forgiveness even when it seems impossible….
I HOPE…
I can be what I need to be… That some dreams really do come true and life will work its way out…
I BELIEVE…
That God has a plan for us all… That I have God-given strength inside of me to do what I must… and That what goes around comes around in time…
I AM…
Me, just me… more happy than sad and mostly glad… In wonder at what life seems to hold…
~~Joni Ellis Bodie

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