Honestly, I crave more time to simply do nothing. It might sound like a lot to ask, but these quiet moments bring calm to my mind and soothe my soul. I also wish for more opportunities to walk and hike, to spend more time outdoors, and to let the fresh air revive my spirit. And sometimes, I just want to play in the dirt… getting my hands messy, connecting with the earth, and letting go of worries for a little while. These simple pleasures make me feel genuinely alive and at peace.

To be honest, the last ten years have taken a deep toll on my soul and my mind. I have lost the desire to do things slowly and have begun to feel I have to force myself to be among people. The ignorance and the bad energy are overwhelming at times. The kindness and the light in the eyes of those who are still holding on, those who need a laugh, a hug, or a few words of inspiration, and even a joke, are what keep me going.

But there is also a desire in me to live as my husband Michael, and I wanted… I told my sister last night when we talked late. I wish I were telling you I was loading the motorhome and heading your way. Where do you want to go first? I would like to travel around to the parks, state, and national parks, to see the countryside. The unrest in this country makes me leery of this now. The financial aspect of life has weighed on me in a way I never saw coming. But I have no regrets, life is too short for that… I have done what I have done, taken care of those I love, even when I should have said no. God has seen me through, and I am fine, just if we are wishing today for what we want to do… I want to see Ireland, ride a train across Canada, see the Alaskan Coast, and see the beauty of nature and sit in a campground around a fire at night and laugh…  Like I said, do nothing but simply enjoy life…