Rambling on about what saps my time and wastes my mind…

I could do less of many things, things that don’t seem to be wasteful, or even a little annoying yet they are in retrospect.  I could do less worrying, worrying never fixes anything as my grandmother said. She was right, just fritters away time that could have been spent doing something. I could do less stalling, why stall what is inevitable,  it just wastes time, you gonna do it anyway,  just do it ! I could do less planning, be more spontaneous and just do the things… might enjoy life a bit more. I could do less procrastinating, it always makes me feel guilty and as if I am always behind. Some days I polish I could do less of the responsible things I do, but that catches up to me faster than I like, then I feel bad and angry at myself.

Yes, there are things I could do less of, most of them start with overthinking, or not thinking, being irresponsible and in the end really eat at me. I suppose the balance of life for me sits precariously among the right, wrong, responsible and irresponsible things I do. The less off and more off things do balance out for the most part… so while there are things I could do less of there are things I can and do more of to counteract them.  Its all about balance,  life that is… life just is, its perfectly imperfect.