Rambling on about life, responsibility, and learning to enjoy the journey…

Lazy days for me are not the enemy of my drive and ambition, not at this age. I now see them as days where I find my mind wandering to the memories that warm my heart and soul. They remind me that life is about more than doing it is also about being… Being still and feeling. Feeling the power of God in  the view outside my window, feeling the reality of life as I think and ponder at my own pace about the goings on around me in the world. I do not feel lazy for taking the time to breathe, to see, to just sit and meander about and be… When I was young and so much had to be done, yes, I felt a bit irresponsible to laze around. But life seems to be full of time when you are younger, as you get older, it seems so short. There is less urgency in life to be productive as I grow older… Oh I still have things to do and things to keep up with, but the urgency, the idea, that I can get by without doing that now is more friend than foe.

I can fondly remember when my days were spent being The Ringmaster of my Family Circus… Kids up and out, doctor appointments, school events, work that seemed never ending. Caring for my home, my kids, my family chores and issues always keeping me in motion. In that time of life, if I sat for too long, did not get things done, I felt behind, unproductive and dreaded the making up of things that was to come. It was as if life was a race not meant to be won but to be sped through and then we fuel up to go again. But as we grow and life changes, we come to the realization of time and energy as more of a gift than a mission. I am fortunate to be HERE.

While I will admit that I do have a part in me that feels better when I have accomplished the things that need to be done. I also have a part in me that relishes the slow mornings and quiet evenings, and that does not nudge me constantly to get up and do. I find I can sit longer and daydream, remembering happy things and missing those who have gone now. I can feed that part of me that just wants to do what I want, not what I must. These lazy days make me feel closer to myself, help me see the miracles about me that before were lost in the speed of life. I am never unproductive really for I do what I ca or must as I go but I know there is no rush in getting to the end of day. Lazy days are for enjoying the ride, letting the journey be an adventure instead of a chore… Those are the days when memories are replayed or made. They are needed and what in the end you will treasure most… So be lazy, take the time to smell the flowers, sit and ponder, or just breathe.

“Be still and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10 Pause, be calm, and recognize Gods power, He is in control in our life, the busy times are necessary but so is the rest…