Good morning y’all Sunshine is breaking through and it’s gonna be a scorcher, again…Welcome to day 170 of 365… and the journey continues…

Today is already heavy, I woke up with a heaviness already in my heart, it is the approaching death anniversaries of those I so deeply miss, compounded by the state of the world and my struggles.
I go to bed and drift to sleep talking to God. I wake up the same, thanking Him for my renewal in body and spirit. But there are still times as I sit, taking in the view sipping my coffee, my mind seems to drift into the darkness inside. Today is one of those days. Tomorrow will be one year since my sister Jill Hawkins passed away. I still find it surreal at times.

Today, I feel the loss deeply even though in my heart I know I lost her many years ago. This morning I wondered if they ( all of my loved ones gone) are the lucky ones to not be here in this dystopian world that is forming outside my gates. Today I’m repeating Faith is greater than Fear in my head, well I’m saying it outloud too, no one here but me. I’m a bit overwhelmed by life chores and the physical ability of mine that seems to be in decline. I’m not down for the count, but God is telling me it’s evolving time again…  I stood on the porch this morning and shouted to the trees, My kingdom for someone to help me… it’s so hard to ask, even harder to find it… I’m praying for it but I know it won’t just show up, I have to do the work.

But for today, it’s already too hot to do anything, and I have other things to do. Today I need to breathe… remember that if all you can do today is survive, it’s okay… that’s making it through. Take care of yourself.
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